Another Day WITHOUT SMOKING

Wow, I'm writing late today!
I hope everyone is doing something wonderful and relaxing this weekend and of course, not smoking :).
It was another gorgeous autumn day in South Texas, I slept wonderfully last night (only my second tremendous nights sleep since I started taking Chantix). My back injury is barely noticeable at all today so maybe life is returning to normal.
I have wanted to smoke a good part of the day but I've been working things out with a couple issues relating to the change in my computer operating system yesterday and when I'm messing with technology stuff I always get a little nervous (although I love tech toys).
I'm also dealing with a family issue............since y'all are about as close to me as family.............I'm the oldest of 7 children and I found out yesterday that my baby brother (the youngest of 7 and 16 years my junior) attempted suicide yesterday. I live in South Texas and the rest of the family lives in Missouri. Well anyway, he's alive and has been involuntarily committed for longer than the official 72 hours.

I guess this would make anyone want to smoke right?
I haven't smoked and I don't plan on smoking but damn it, I want a cigarette!!!!!!
I want that Ahhhhhhhh feeling, just for awhile (knowing me, I'd love that long lost friend so much I'd never stop). Okay, I'm talking myself out of smoking just knowing it would be a return to my old habit.

I hope everyone else is relaxed and enjoying their weekend smoke free.

I am an addict, I understand I will always be one cigarette away from my pack a day habit.
I vow not to smoke today.