In my dreams last night I was smoking, and so darn real that when I woke up I wondered if it had been a dream or if I had really smoked cigarettes. OMG it was so vivid, so unbelievably real. I will admit that when I got out of bed the urge to actually smoke was rather intense and I quick had two pieces of toast and took my Chantix.
I'm thinking that my dreams were prompted with the news that my sister and her husband (both smokers) will be coming for their visit in 3 weeks. I'm probably going to be crawling the walls wanting a cigarette but I'm not going to smoke, I can't go backwards, I just can't.
This will be good practice for my upcoming flight and cruise. I need a dry run to make sure I'm not going to want to jump off my cabin's balcony the first time I'm faced with smokers en mass.
My back is slowly but surely recovering from my fall earlier this week and I'm beginning to move without constant pain.
Thanks for the support friends!
Admission & Vow:
I am an addict, I understand I will always be one cigarette away from my pack a day habit.
I vow not to smoke today.
Thursday, October 18, 2007
I Had a Dream....
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Smoking dreams sure can be realistic and crazy, can't they? I'm no dream expert by any stretch, but I do think that it's our minds sort of working out the whole transition from smoker to non-smoker thing. I mean, it really is such a very big deal. Sorry to hear about your fall, but glad to hear you are feeling better.
It will be interesting to see how easy or difficult it will be when your visitors are there and smoking, but you don't have to, no matter what. Even when I slipped/relapsed/fell off/smoked, whatever, I didn't *have* to, and alcohol probably was a contributing factor. I bet you will do just fine.
I'm not a drinker so I'm in hopes that I can in fact deflect the urges I'm sure will surface.
I'm continually amazed at the times when my resolve seems strongest.
As for the dream.....what scares me is that in the dream I gave in to my fears - I smoked (in the dream). I wonder if I'm already dooming myself to failure.
You're not dooming yourself. Keep up the positive attitude and you will be fine. It may be a little tough at times but you'll get through.
Sorry to hear about your back. I'm glad it's feeling better.
I'm a little jealous when I read of Chantix dreams. I have never even had one. I keep reading about people having them, but not me. boo hoo... I probably only remember a dream a couple of times a year.
Good luck with your company there. It will be hard so prepare yourself. It'll be the same for me at the end of the month when we go to Michigan. Everybody that we'll stay with there smokes. I'll just concentrate on how much their houses stink! lol
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