Lost count of the # of days but still not smoking

Another gorgeous autumn day in South Texas. My dear husband and I went outside early this afternoon and cut tree limbs to drag out front for trash pick up - was exhausting but felt good to get the exercise.

The family crap continues and makes me happy as hell that I live here and they live 1000 miles away.

I was thinking......there have been a number of stressors present in the last few weeks that I have gotten through without smoking - yes I've thought about wanting a cigarette and yes even one time lit a cigarette for a single drag but I've made it through and unscathed. I tried something today that someone told me about (and it actually worked), I took a large long bolt and a nut and when I thought about a cigarette I instead would play with this nut and bolt, screwing on the nut and then unscrewing - urge went away and I kept those hands busy.

I think I'm making it though and that brings a smile to my face and a real sense of satisfaction to my spirit. In the process of this struggle I have also come in contact with some awesome men and women who share my struggle and without you all and the encouragement and love of my family, I would still be a smoker.
Thats my Ahhhhhh for today.

I am an addict, I understand I will always be one cigarette away from my pack a day habit.
I vow not to smoke today.