I got up this morning to my husband telling me my daughter (28) was planning a surprise to thank me for quitting smoking.............I have to tell you, I hate surprises, I'm a planner, I guess almost a control freak. Anyway, she was bringing my sister and her husband down here from rural Missouri. WRONG! You don't surprise me with wishing I had rewashed the sheets in the guest bedroom, dusting, and vacuuming. You don't surprise me with company when there is nothing left in the refrigerator except leftovers. You don't surprise me when your husband has had plans to attend a seminar for weeks the same time they will be here.
He told me about the "surprise" and I was furious, the first thing I said was "I want a cigarette right now, in fact, I want to chain smoke."
I got online and told my sister I knew, she was a little upset but we talked about it and all is fine, they will come, stay here and we'll have a nice time. AND, I get to plan.
I like surprises when they look like an upgraded room when my sister and I go to Vegas, a gift certificate for airline tickets, etc - not surprising me with family staying at my house and I need to do housework to get ready.
Still not smoking so that's good.
My admission & vow:
I am an addict, I understand that I will always be one cigarette away from my pack a day habit.
I vow not to smoke today.
Wednesday, October 17, 2007
Need to smoke averted
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MamaFlo, I completely understand every word and feel just the same. Some surprises are good, but some I need to be able to plan, especially guest in my home. I probably would have had the same thought to want to smoke at them all! So glad you didn't ;)
I did surprise my dear Tom by flying his best friend out for a visit, but since I was the one doing the cooking and cleaning, etc., and I knew his schedule, I figured it would be OK. And it was. He's way more laid back than I am, though ;)
I do hope you'll enjoy the visit more on your terms, and I wish only the best kind of surprises, like upgrades, coming your way.
I'm glad you averted the "need' to smoke. You've come to far to let yourself and everyone else down. Enjoy the visit!
Oh, I would have freaked too! And, I'm sure I would have had the same thoughts about smoking. I hope that I would have done the same as you and got past the urge.
I too like to have freshly laundered sheets on the guest bed when guests come. In fact, I won't even wash them until the day of arrival so that they are as fresh as can be. lol
I'm glad that you were strong and able to handle your stress without smoking. That's a huge milestone!
Enjoy your visit!
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