I'm still not smoking and still wanting a cigarette. I pray every night that this tugging will subside and I can actually experience a day (I'm praying for the rest of my life but I'll take what I can get right now) without wanting a cigarette. I can tell you all the reasons I shouldn't smoke, every reason why I quit in the beginning, even reasons that have surfaced since I've quit, but for some reason I still want to smoke. Yes I'm down to one 1mg tablet a day of my Chantix but to be honest, I'm not feeling any different now than I felt when I was taking 2 tablets a day.
The strongest of the tuggings don't last very long and I can endure but damn it I want to hate cigarettes.
I see that some of you are hitting real big markers in your quits - Congratulations!!
Be safe during the holiday season everyone and stay with your quits.
Thanks for being my quit buddies!
Tuesday, November 20, 2007
Just shy of 2 months
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MamaFlo, I understand. Even just last night out of nowhere I just *really* missed smoking for a bit. It passed. It always does. I, too, will be glad when that's even more rare than it already is. I do know that for me it has gotten better, and I believe it will continue to do so. I think it will for you, too, at some point. We are all different. The idea that you still hang on and keep going even when it isn't quite as easy means that you are super tough and that you *can* make it to the other side where the tuggings become whispers or even non-existent. Just keep going, MamaFlo. Each day that you post about another successful day quit, I'm inspired to keep going, too. We will all make it.
Hey, MamaFlo...We're all in the same boat, believe me. I still think about smoking, but keep telling myself that it is not worth it. I was around smokers this past weekend, and I could not believe how bad they smelled. It's amazing how much more sensitive we are as new "non-smokers" to things like that. You are doing such a great job with your quit, and you are an inspiration to others, so I encourage you to keep it up! I know it's not easy. I have not taken Chantix in 10 days, and I had a few scary moments, but refuse to give in. I think we all are very lucky to have other people to encourage and inspire us. I know I could never have done this without Chantix, and I could never, EVER have done it without reading blogs like yours. Maggie is right when she says " we will all make it". It's not easy, but please know that I am right there with you (even though I'm in boring old Dull-a-where)...I will always support you and wish you the best of luck with your quit. Have a great, smoke-free Thanksgiving!!!!
Happy Thanksgiving!
I understand too...I only have about 13 days nicotine and smoke free but I really started quitting October 1. I keep wondering why I still want to smoke at certain times. Is it habit, addiction or just bordom? I want to be cured....the memories of the good times and the "AHHHHHHH feeling" you look for in cigareetes pulled from my head and no longer missing my disgusting, dirty friend. I know its not going to be that easy but one can hope right? On a positive note, I had to hope for a vivid Chantix dream for about a month before I got one so now I will start hoping to go a whole day without wanting a cigarette. You are doing great! All the people doing this before me are truly an inspiration.
Peace,
Diva
I know this is an old blog, but I'm starting at the beginning and going through to current. Gosh do I know what you mean. Just want the urges to be over and done. :)
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