Good Morning!
The weather is playing flip-flop again, what a 12 month span this has been, going through every conceivable variation of what the weather could possibly be. I know the entire country, no make that world has been through the same. I think we better heed Mother Nature or she's gonna shake us the hell right off the planet.

Oh yeah, this blog is about my struggle with Quitting Smoking........another day without a cigarette but those there tuggings are just a wee bit stronger than they were last week but hey, this cannot be physical anymore, this has to be psychological and it has to be that I'm thinking about not taking the Chantix anymore (as it shouldn't matter going from half a tablet to nothing). I've made so many changes since I quit smoking like not really drinking coffee anymore (went from about 4 pots a day down to half a cup), as I've lamented before.....I just don't enjoy the coffee without the cigarettes, sooooooooo, and I quit biting my nails (yes I was one of those neurotic people that was biting her nails when she wasn't smoking - OMG)!!!!! Then of course there is my quest to get healthy by eating better (the exercise will come later when the doctor says my carotid arteries are doing better) - don't read into this that I'm overweight cause I'm not, luckily I've never had to battle weight and I could eat anything I wanted but of course eating anything I wanted was horrible for my heart and arteries. Then of course there was the change in wardrobe that happened earlier this winter after my sister came to visit and with her and my daughter we went shopping and I felt like a fish out of water - I dislike shopping and I've fallen behind in fashion (I didn't own a single pair of denim pants but instead I love Lands End sport knits), anyway I also wasn't a make-up wearer (more of the tom-boy type) and they make me feel so bad about myself that after my sister left, I went on a shopping spree for denim and make-up and now I'm poorer but I'm more fashionable - hahaahaaaa.
Anyway, I would really like to stop making more changes for awhile and instead settle into this new life I've created for myself and simply get used to not smoking and not eating the things I enjoy, while struggling to hold onto that icky food with these long nails so the food doesn't land on these denim jeans. Oh what a tangled web we weave.
This is all "almost" enough to make me reach for a cigarette! Hahahahaa

I hope everyone out there is staying with their quit and making the changes necessary to love their new smoke free life!